Grit

I want to escape this mess I'm in confess to all the sins I've been tortured in 

get rid of this depressed feelin I'm in 

instead I suck it up wake up every morning get dressed like its routine 

pull on my jeans smile in the mirror let myself be seen 

my happy isn't as clear as it appears to be 

ill take the liquor straight to the liver in hopes that my sorrow will disappear 

all this emotion gets too familiar 

I don't know why my devotion is so superior 

I've got bigger plans for myself 

I want to better myself 

but how can one self better themself

when they are put up high on a shelf 

as if an elf on a shelf told what to do, how to act.

my mind is too abstract for that.

 in fact I'm just trying to extract myself

 keeping my sanity intact 

make an impact on someone else's life

become someone's wife 

more bliss and a little less strife I'm stuck in this reminisce I keep walking through life's abyss 

I dream of the deep kiss we shared that night it felt just right and that's what I miss 

what kind of person does this another's got me on a constant coercion 

I'm still looking for that one diversion 

look,

 I'm done,

 yes

 the ride was fun 

I've got to shun myself 

let the sun shine through myself 

better myself 

I've got to find my Elysian peace increase the positive decrease the negative 

I was created as God's masterpiece 

I've got the strength to beat the odds I'm willing to go the extra lengths to find my moment of bliss so miss me while I'm gone the damage has been done 

my heart is on the run its headed towards the son 

he never hurt me, he never left me, he never broke a promise, he never burnt me, he sees the good in the depth of my heart.

 so I'm done with this compromise

 the Suns about to rise and I'll be riding towards it 

Because I know on the other side I'll find my pride 

knowing that I tried and all the while I cried 

you may see the pain in the footprints left by my stride but through it all I've still got my pride!